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10 days on... and its all gone...
july 8th was the day! apprehension.. excitement.. a new phase in life tt i was lookin forward to more than not.. yea.. being away from home, family, my baby(ok.. im already away la...but.. in e sense.. so little time for her) , my friends.. tt was e harder thing to deal with than training itself.. training is something i look forward to.. HATE MARCHING... but training.. NICE..just like all tt sorta trainin tt just makes me perspire and at e end of e day make my body ache.. that shows im pushing myself u see.. enjoy it.. well.. was just fun.. first few days were pretty relaxed.. but as the days went by.. training got a lil tougher.. it was all gd.. goin thru trainin with my section and e entire platoon was just fun.. all one fun group.. with all excellent sergeants.. and excellent warrant officers.. just made everything better... but i wont deny...it was tough.. tough part was havin so little time to talk to my baby...sometimes couldnt get to talk to her.. tt was tough..but all in all.. gd part was the training.. before goin into NS.. was hoping for commandos.. well.. that never happened.. but learnin that i was in Bronco Company! one of the few enhanced batches goin for command school.. DAMN... was excited i must say!.. but......all just came to an end last night.. when i went to see e medical officer because of extreme pain in my right knee.. he felt abit here and there.. pulled my knee in diff positions..some of which hurt like CRRAAZZZY!!...and straight away.. was like.. "im taking you out of training..u have multiple injuries to ur right knee ligament"....first reaction........none.. didnt know how to react... was thinkin to myself.. "what?!???....10days...THATS IT?? and im out?!?".....cant help but look at oneself and feel inadequate as much as may be said otherwise.. disappointment... hell yeah....after having hopes and aspirations for so long... for making e most of the 2yrs.. of hoping for commandos or ocs.. makin it a point to run 8km 3-4 times a week..(and yet stay this size.. *pPpfFffFff*).. just doin whatever i can to make sure im physically able to carry through..in just a matter of seconds.. its all gone... yea.. i know its like.. "so what.. oughta think abt ur future..ur knee stays with u for life.. not NS".. no doubt abt all of that.. but.. to have something u've wanted so bad for so long.. just be taken out of ur grasp in just a span of 15seconds.. it is heart wrenching.. but its true.. i gotta take care of myself..(if not how to take care of u.. *smilez*)..its just that its disappointing.. but u know.. after every storm comes a beautiful day.. like what baby was tellin me abt wat yy told her.. that we oughta celebrate in everything.. and just be glad abt what we have.. there is so much to be thankful for.. to begin with.. that i can still walk!!.. opens e possibilities of my concurrent Bible studies.. a downgrade would mean so much more time on my hands.. yea.. i am thankful.. but.. disappointment, set backs.. part and parcel of life eh???.. my beautiful day is coming.. =) and to u.. i know u hearing abt all this and not being able to be here while its all happenin upsets u.. and i know u want me to take care of myself.. coz gotta take care of u.. *smiles*.. well.. yeah.. i will take care of myself..and u have my word.. im not gonna push it anymore.. n i just thank u for all ur encouragement, ur prayers, ur scolding (hehehehe).. which i know was out of ur love n concern for me..im just thankful.. and hey..as far as lookin as bright side of things is concerned.. this means.. i got more time with you! ;) .. thank you baby.. u've never failed to make me smile.. *muacks* sashi [lEfT oUr pRiNtZ__*__sIlLyGiRl] at 7:10 pm
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