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so yeah..... welcome to my life...
so two months into my work at IMH.... God... it aint that blissful afterall... yah.... not like i said it was supposed to be blissful to begin with... but.... WTH... i hate it... okie.. so... wassup with this girl man...?? volunteerly-based work.... two months... recovery psychiatric patients... and giving up already?? yah.. say watever u wanna say abt me... easily give up... no discipline... no determination... yah... i'm not a tough cookie... yah.. i'm young... *BLEAHZ!!* but i'm willing to learn... BUT U PEOPLE ARE NOT WILLING TO FREAKING TEACH!!! so wat if i'm young.. so wat if i dun hav a COUSELLING DEGREE... SO WAT SO WAT!!??!!! here's wat happened on tuesday... as usual.. i walk into my work place at 10am.... (yah... i'm supposed to arrive at 9am.. but try arriving at 9 everyday but u jus sit there and DO NOTHING and NOBODY gives a damn abt ur existence... slowly u will become like me... they should be grateful i even arrive at work at the "AM" period of the day) and as usual... i waited to go for music practice (yah.. i practice music/singing for work..?? coz they want to build a worship team with the members aka recovery psychiatric patients. did i mentioned.... the onli member in the team who is a recovery psychiatric patient is the electric guitarist??) so happen, on tuesday the lead guitarist (we onli hv ONE pathetic guitarist) was absent... so no music practice.... so... means i slack... slack slack slack... do alil bit of preparation for my recovery class later... (anywayz.. nobody will be there.. i ever hit a attendance for 3 people... thank u veyr much.. not tt my lesson are tt bad... but.. they have an outing every tuesday... so yeah... my class are the people who doesnt wanna go outing ) then it was lunch... then the DIRECTOR said she wans to tok to me... call me into her room... i tot i was goin to get shit... but guess wat?!?!?!! "Amy, can u move to David's room?? coz Pauline wans to move to ur current place. Anyways, Helena will be going off end of this week... so u can share the room with David." NOTE: this is the second time she moved me.... not tt i hav an issue with moving... she moved me OUTSIDE the main office... and u know wat....?? i dun get an access card into the main office... all along.. if i go out of the main office and hav to go back to my room.. i hav to ring the door bell... freak...now.. that i'm OUTSIDE the main office... each time i wanna go to the toilet.... i hav trouble... CRAP.. and they hav this policy that every time u go out of ur room... be it to the toilet or wat.. u have to lock ur room... for security sake... so... they dun even give me access card to the main office.. let alone the key to the room rite...??? so imagine.... scenario 1 : imagine david is not ard in the room and i hv to go to the toilet... do i wait for david to come back or do i go toilet scenario 2 : imagine i go toilet and come go back to the room and realise david is not in the room... Scenario 3 : arriving to work earlier than david scenario 4 : david go on leave or mc SICK RITE...??? WAT THE HELL..... ok nvm... then while eating my lunch..... Director came and sit with me and david.... then she started to tok abt how IMMATURE I look.... abt the way i dress.... should dress more mature coz i dun look mature... abt imagining... WTH... far out.. u jealous that i'm young issit old haggard..... like OUCH... she wanted to extend my 3 months to 6 months... i wonder wat are her motives... then there was some toking then it came to a part where i didnt directly say that psychiatric patients are not my passion.. but i said.. : "my passion is still youth and children" then she asked if i was going to study somemore.... (coz my degree doesnt allow me to do direct counselling) then i mentioned abt going to bible school... tinking... if i wanna do counselling... i wanna do it in a church base setting.... not a secular world one... then she started to ask... "is this (social work sector) the only area u are considering?? so i asked.. : "u mean.. abt me looking for jobs OUTSIDE in the COMMERCIAL WORLD?" she said yes and i said no (as straight in her face as i can) obviously i know wat she was directing... first abt saying that my face (immature) dun suit the social work sector, then my dressing (immature) dun suit the social work sector, then in her mind, probably abt the lack of ability to do counselling. in the mist of the conversation... she also mentioned abt sending me for one week course... and u know wat course... NURSING course... wat the hell... WAKE UP UR IDEA MADAM...!!! tok abt working in a working environment where nobody believes in you coz u are onli 23 and no 23 year old can handle such a sector coz everyone there have lotsa commercial world work experience.. older.. more mature... yada yada yada.... yah... tok abt already have no motivation... and this add on top of it... hmmmm ICING ON THE CAKE??? [lEfT oUr pRiNtZ__*__sIlLyGiRl] at 1:45 am
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