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HmmMmm.... 13 days left.... WHY IS IT STILL FREAKING DOUBLE DIGITS!!
Help Lord... Pls... I am going to crumble soon..... actually.... it has already started... its just a matter of WHEN am I going to disintegrate into nothing... I am missing him really badly... why did u leave for such a LONG period of time? why did u choose to go to a place where communication is like looking for curry in a chinese restaurant for such a long time? why do u have to choose to leave for a place like this at this period of time...? okie... his reasons were... kinda valid... but still... on my side... I really cant handle it... I CANT...! so far... I got... 3 emails, 2 smses a day (if I am lucky), 1 6-mins call. some tags on my blog.... none on MSN..... havent seen his face for God know's how long..... All writes almost the same thing, "Be strong; it's going to pass before you know it; I am sorry; There's nothing more I can do." IT IS NOT GOING TO PASS BEFORE I KNOW IT!! WHAT I KNOW FOR NOW IS THAT THERE IS STILL THIRD-FREAKING-TEEN DAYS TO GO...!! HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL "OH-IT-IS-GOING-TO-PAST-BEFORE-I-KNOW-IT"?? pardon me for me frustrations.... I really dun understand how can someone feel better by reading something like "it is going to past before you know it" when days are draggin on like years maybe if u ask me when those EIGHT-FREAKING-TEEN days are gone, I'd say, yah... It went past... BUT for YOUR information.. IT HAVENT!! and IT'S BLOODY DRAGGY!! *UUURRRGGGHH!!!* btw.... the tally doesnt look like it's going to increase anytime soon... neither does it seem like the 13 days is going to pass any sooner... maybe, no expectations brings no disappointment... everytime I SMS, I feel like I am sms-ing to a wall. not knowing if he'd reply... usually he doesnt... how am I supposed to view my situation now? should i just regard that he disappeared into thin air for some period of time, not even caring about how long he is going to be away? oh, come back then come back lo, dun come back, then dun come back lo.... ----> I cant... should I count down to the days that he will be back, waiting and anticipating if he is going to SMS/email/call? ----> I cant... WHY is the question I question myself, him and God. WHY...? WHY at a time like this and WHY in a way like this? WHY God, WHY?? so the first time in my life... i got smses like from india.... in some funny language. one of those looks like this... "üúûüüüàáēċĘúüüü¥§£ěáēċĘúü {ü}ßØüüüûüýþ$$]«°\]^üûüÝ ûüĘüü¢£Ýüüüüüüáâüü üúû üüüàáēċĘúüüü¥§£ě{ü}ßØ<ü>]^ûüĘü ü¢£ÝüüüüüċĘúüüü¥§£ě{¢£^ûüĘ" I swear it looks like this... for awhile, it's funny coz it might be some indian language... as i begin to not understand wad he was trying to communicate with me I began to feel very frustrated.... then he msged me with his singapore number... with a brillant idea...... an example of one of those msg... "HeyBabyhowWasWork?DidntHear FromUTodayGotMySmsInTheMorn? ImNotFeelingMyBestPollutionTaking ItsToll.anyway,AmPrayin4uLoveYouBaby iMissUSoMuchHangInThereBaby" genius... but still... sms are limited.... besides that... so many other things are crushing on me at the same time.... not helpful at all... I duno even know how to go about dealing with those stuffS... I need Big Daddy.... I know... He is all I need.... Other than Big Daddy... I need to be away from everything in life.... I need a break... a break from eveything.. HELP!! on top of everything else, the "icing on the cake" was that my laptop went crazy on me AGAIN.... in two weeks from coming back from the service center... AINT LIFE GREAT? [lEfT oUr pRiNtZ__*__sIlLyGiRl] at 12:15 am
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